Plans thrown up into the air like confetti!

 This isn't quite how I planned to spend this week so far, it seems my plans have been thrown up into the air like confetti!☹️🎉

After feeling quite groggy and slow yesterday I was still adamant I wanted to get Daisy clipped and exercised ready to leave for a week of jumping at Arena UK today. I did manage to get everything ready to go...other than my health!🙈

True to form if there's ever a time we get a hiccup, it's before an event!
After curling up in pain even after strong painkillers yesterday I passed it off as being a rough couple hours, but soon realised it was more abnormal as it progressed. The pain passed but was soon followed by my drainage bag filling up with over a litre of blood stained fluid and was a sure sign something isn't right. 😳Oh dear...a symptom I can no longer pass off to mum as 'it'll be alright in half an hour'- even though I did try desperately to!

In unfamiliar territory (a rarity for me) I called our hospital ward for advice late last night before coming here to be monitored in person. Additionally, the ongoing 'dodgy blood levels saga' as I call it continues, my routine blood test reported my potassium and magnesium levels were extremely low, requiring immediate infusions at hospital...luckily enough I'm already here so I'm currently doubling up on getting problems seen to!

I am definitely in denial of the fact I'm a bit weak, the way I try to go about things you'd think I was the incredible hulk! Unfortunately my physical strength doesn't quite match my mental strength (yet)💁🏻and it's not a great starting point of health to add more complications into the mix. For now the nurses have agreed that it's most likely a bleed originating in my kidneys internally..possibly caused by falling off Breeze last week, but with my body (and organs, tissues etc) already struggling so much the chances are it has just presented itself much more severely than it would in an otherwise healthy person.

To be honest, I'm more upset I'm not at Arena UK right now than I am about the bleed..but if you ask me I think that's because I've got different priorities to the nurses here! (Who all think I'm loopy!)🙈
One way or another I will get to Arena UK this week, even if it's just to watch and enjoy the show. (It also happens to be the only thought keeping sane whilst in here.) As always it's 'Find a way, not an excuse' 💪🏼

In the meantime, I think trying to accept I'm a bit weak would be a good idea so that I can better look after myself- the problem is my brain and ambitions just override everything else. I need a body that can keep up and match my brain!😅

#findawaynotanexcuse